Monday, September 15, 2014

You Can't Make Me

View of Haiti after the earthquake. Bleak Street.

This poem written and originally posted in the comment section on Orange Is A Fruit, the Wordpress blog of Irene Toh. You Can't Make Me in it's original form is also found in a collection of poems called Duet as a download here: Red Wolf Journal, New Poetry Collections

You Can't Make Me

Don't you know by now
is what she said to me, tossed
off like flicking hair
or picking a sore
at the corner of her mouth.
I am still here, face
planted on Bleak Street in my
own quantum dot haze
calling this shit art,
still mud eyed looking beyond
my own ooze crusted
brick at the good life
they say waits for me over
the tropical wall.
It's chickens again,
barnyard pickers on sore earth
telling me what for.

‎April ‎23, ‎2014 6:12 AM
Last two lines added
September 15, 2014

The Barnyard

Sunday, September 14, 2014

I Has Spoken! - A Magpie Tale

The photo "Morning Curtains" chosen by Tess as a writing prompt for this Sunday's Magpie Tales: Mag 237

I Has Spoken!

I will leave you there,
right behind the translucent
lace arrowed in space
in gravitic drapes
aimed at your neck blushing pink
as if inviting
me to second thoughts
in re my inner demons
but no, I'm going
to Colorado
with my guitar and my dog,
just like I damn said.

‎September ‎14, ‎2014 11:25 AM

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Your Gone Away Posture


To me you have gone
and taken your name away.
I no longer know
what it is to say
it, what aroma
and shape it takes when I say
it in day's early
light or in moonshine.
It's your gone away posture
that strafes my soul's face
with large caliber
plugs of gray sea ice
and my peeled back skin reveals
my sunk thews and bones.

October 5, 2010 12:45 PM

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Green Wine and Vanilla Gin

Green Wine, a bit tipsy perhaps

The word list from Red Wolf Poems
green, wine, vanilla, gin, bloggers, papers, moles, stain
See the post here

I'm Not As Think
As You Drunk I Am


I drink your green wine
or else your vanilla gin
with the impunity
I showed you before
the bloggers came up between
the moles.

They dug and
now curl above ground.

There is a stain on my teeth
and one is broken
but that never made
the papers.

‎September ‎10, ‎2014 3:22 PM

Vanilla Gin

Red Wolf

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

The Changeling - Three Word Wednesday

The Circus Geek

The Three Words for this Wednesday: Carcass; Geek; Slash
Go To Three Word Wednesday

The Changeling

Me, a circus geek
I was in the long ago
with warm chicken blood
and sheep gut slickness
and other things too,
paying my way in bad times.

A carcass, I smell
like some farmyards might.

The midway alive at night
is a slash right through
all the other dreams
I once had and I am glad
that's all over with.

Now my changeling ways
are well hidden in some back
thoroughly locked room.

‎September ‎10, ‎2014 2:03 PM

The Midway

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Bleak Street


Bleak Street

Said she didn't know
where to go from this blasted
street with all the broke
down cars, the spilled oil,
and the starving dogs chasing
the few remaining
cats and rats.

Not one
honeybee left in the land
is what the guy said
before we killed him.

Said she didn't know how to
get up the old grit
now that the canned goods
have run out, not even now
that the cooking oil
is all used up. Yea,
she has started to look at
me with a strange glint.

‎April ‎22, ‎2014 6:57 PM

Monday, September 8, 2014

The Gray Sea


You know my fervent
hopes, my pleas that you decide
to stay in my arms,
but like the gray sea
of this late autumn morning,
like the slick washed sides
of the creatures there,
you slip free and go. I can't
keep you home this time.
This forces me out
of my dream. I must admit
I no longer know
your true and private
name.

October 4, 2010 12:24 PM

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Holy Trinity - A Magpie Tale


Image from Tess for Mag 236

Holy Trinity

Mother, Daughter, Ghost
with dusty thin wings at that,
oh you who reach out
and graze the bright light
leaving your colors behind,
messages of what
exactly you might
have in mind for me this time -
I promise not to
snigger and whisper
in the pews or in my bed
or while peeing out
the red dye they gave
me for my damn infection.
One thing is for sure,
my dears. I did not
get this crud from any one
of you, nor your light.

‎September ‎7, ‎2014 2:48 PM


Saturday, September 6, 2014

Time For A Rain Dance

A Navaho Rain Dance

Pray For Rain

It's time. Hold the light.
Let it shine around corners
and into crannies.
Let's watch cockroaches
scurry for the smaller cracks
in the far ledges
of our growing hope
as we pray for coming rain
within this long drought.

September 28, 2010 4:02 PM

A rain dance is a prayer in motion, a prayer embodied, an invitation for the sacred to manifest in the downflow of water. A rain dance is a promise to continue the sacred connection of God and man, of God and tribe and to carry forward the wisdom of the ancestors and to pass it to the children.

Friday, September 5, 2014

Fall Is Coming


Regret And Premonition

If my love would work
as it feels like it should work
then you would never
be sad or care how
long it has been since springtime
and all the colors
that lifted us then.

Love's so big it spills over,
bigger than I am,
but we're into fall
now, and I feel it coming,
feel the cold cold snow.

September 28, 2010 3:51 PM

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Compliments of Harvey Line - A Red Wolf Poem


Harvey Line owned motor inns back in the day as the ad shows. The poem is about an event in 1947.

Compliments of Harvey Line

In Long Beach she slapped
my Dad's face with her lawyer.
The papers said it:
dissolution comes
in motor hotels built near
world wide battle zones
just as easily
as it comes anywhere else:
"I'm kicking your butt
clean out of my life,
you bastard", she said. My Dad
got a bit upset
at this, so upset
that when I asked fifty-eight
years later, he blew.

‎September ‎4, ‎2014 2:29 PM

I am writing of a real situation but not of a real event. The couple who broke up at Harvey Line's is someone's mom and dad, not mine. The break up of my mom and dad was probably more civilized but no less difficult. How could it be less difficult with a child and a child's expense involved? And when I asked over a half century later, my dad was still burning with it. That was quite obvious. He offered to tell me his version of what happened but I figured any version for none of my business, so I backed away. A divorce is always unique in detail but shares much in common with other divorces as well.

Red Wolf

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

As The Sun Rises


As The Sun Rises

I am never far,
not from love, nor from the heat
of it, not from you
nor your very truth
as I found it once and laid
hold of my blessing -
all rapt as I am
in the meaning of your gaze
when you touch my heart.

September 28, 2010 4:46 AM
Removed inane last verse, September 2, 2014

The image above is a sunrise view of Mount Hood as seen in the Portland Metro area. For many years I travelled to work in the morning on the local Interstate and got this sort of view and many others just as breathtaking.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Where I Spend My Time


Responding To You

Right outside my place
is a bottomless blue pool
and out of that pool
each sunset I rise
and enter my own front door
and then act as if
I was never gone.
I do this because you told
me to touch my base.

September 27, 2010 9:26 PM
changed one word September 1, 2014

Sunday, August 31, 2014

And The Gulls Cry - A Magpie Tale

Fishermen of Dark Harbor, by N C Wyeth (father of Andrew) N C Wyeth was both a painter and an illustrator of which he said, "Painting and illustration cannot be mixed—one cannot merge from one into the other." He was best known for his illustrations of a classic series of 25 books published by Scribners, including his best, the first one, Treasure Island.

Chosen by Tess as a writing prompt for Magpie Tales: Mag 235

And The Gulls Cry

If there was a sun
it would beat my back and stink
the fish more quickly
as I ride the tide
and shift my full boatload catch
to wicker baskets.

This is my goddam
life I am talking about.
I hear there's gold in
Alaska, other
ways to thrive other places,
but here it's all these
fish.

I would go, son,
but then there's you. I would go
and leave her damn flat
but for love of you.

‎August ‎31, ‎2014 11:18 AM

Friday, August 29, 2014

The Meeting

From a blog post back in 2012, from Nik Daum, see the post here

Roppongi House was an old building, crusty and worn on the outside in keeping with the appearance of the other modest units that hadn’t been torn down yet. Compared to our last hotel rooms, having more than a single room felt luxurious. The place had three bedrooms, two toilet closets (one modified squat/one western), a mildewy shower room, and a living area and small kitchen space. The stairway to the upper floor was narrow and dark. The sleeping areas had woven floors and traditional mats and bedding.

Nik takes lots of photos and produces art. As well he recorded his experiences overseas. I do not know Nik. The wonders of internet search allowed me to find his blog. I love the alley, and I marvel at the squat toilet that flushes. I saw many squats in Bangladesh but they all flushed by hand.


The Meeting

The narrow alley
in which we met only spanned
one block between us,
between two busy
streets of our sky scraping town.
No leaping buildings
is permitted here,
and no swimming to England
either. Still we met.
We both had to go,
go quickly as if we had
so much more to do.

I am left with mystery,
memory, strings hanging out.

September 27, 2010 7:45 PM


Here's the squat toilet with a hand wash sink above that is also the fill tank for the toilet flush. Thus the sink runs automatically to fill the tank and you can wash your hands while that is happening. There are many ways in the world.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Toeing The Line


It just gets so confusing, and I know you know this.

Toeing The Line

When I met you it
was in mirth and smiles and jokes
we told each other,
told the others too.
We found our comfort in light.
I brought you into
me and laid you down
and it got all warm and true
and the least I meant
was to have you toe
some damn stupid line for me.

I saw your hurt toes
anyway, my love.

September 26, 2010 7:44 PM

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Metaphysics - We Wordle #25


Metaphysics

How am I to know
the deep veined and pondered truth
without her left hand
spiral down the hall?
This suits my so large sleeping
dog just fine. I am
dismissed by spacetime.
I find no solace in the moment.
The four open holes
are traps of a sort
the dog left for me as she
looked for our way out.

‎August ‎27, ‎2014 3:12 PM

Spacetime Dimensionality - We are here in the four open holes of spacetime.


Written in response to We Wordle #25

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Try At Your Own Risk - A Reprise


Nemesis, by Melanie Delon

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
-- Friedrich Nietzsche, "On Reading and Writing"

I remember well. To consort with the Goddess, has ever been my privilege. I do not fear.

With The Goddess

As you approach me
I find the edge of myself
tremble, then dissolve
as your sea takes me
into the orbit
of your lunar gravity.

There I find that I'm
overcome, must be
with you, conjunction of sun,
moon, total eclipse,
full corona, flares
on all sides of me as I
burn, nuclear fire.

July 19, 2009 2:43 PM
Modified September 26, 2010 12:02 PM

Posted originally on Sunday, September 26, 2010 and according with my mood today, worth revisiting.

Monday, August 25, 2014

The Haunt


It's A Predicament

You come to me weird,
all squirmy and squash, loose lipped
and gray. I'm weary
and bemused by you,
unsure what to do with your
in my face waggles.
It would be easy
I guess if you weren't my haunt.
You stay in my head
and wriggle your way
all through my chest making rooms
and furnishing them.

September 26, 2010 11:52 PM
Modified August 25, 2014

Hmmm. This poem is actually totally changed in order to keep the image and poem consistent. The original poem went like this:

You come to me hard,
all angles and brusque, stiff lipped
and stern, and wary.
I'm bemused by you,
unsure what to do with your
in my face posture.
It would be easy
I guess if you weren't my haunt.
You stay in my head
and wriggle your way
all through my chest making rooms
and furnishing them.

And while the original poem was self-consistent, have you ever tried to find a haunt that is hard and brusque, stiff lipped and stern, all angles and taking an in your face posture? Oh man, what an order! Now you get to decide if you want to which haunt is more terrible.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Spying On Witches


The Coven

The dance had you then,
after you buried your womb
in the blue black earth
prepared, sanctified
by your dozen partners, crones
under the full moon.
I watched, took this risk
knowing my mortality
at stake in this place.

September 25, 2010 3:02 PM

Friday, August 22, 2014

Indra's Net

An ancient vision of Indra's Net

Singing To The Moon

When you told me this,
told me of Indra and her
net of jewels, stars
without end and each
showing all the rest inside,

when you said those things
I found my lightning,
summoned my heart's larger voice.

So too, will you sing
for the ghost moon’s love.

September 25, 2010 10:43 AM

A modern vision of Indra's Net

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Solar Attitude

Image by Nicole Hollenbeck

What if we pissed Sol off? He's still young enough to cop an attitude, I think.

Solar Attitude

I know you have spots
in certain places, hot spots
that could kill us all.

I fear you will go
off here, right here at any
moment without cause,
that I will be turned
at that moment into dust
only dimly shown
in the gassy flow,
the cataclysm you are,
and then you subside
(as if I was never here)
as if you never
act like that at all.

September 24, 2010 4:37 PM

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

The Long Way

The Shortcut, Dalby Forest.

Dalby Forest is a forest located on the southern slopes of the North York Moors National Park in North Yorkshire, England. It is maintained by the UK Forestry Commission.

I have written of this before and I will again. It is sort of ground zero and I loop out and return. Something happened to me a long time ago now and I have never really understood it. On the other hand it so compellingly actually and overwhelmingly HAPPENED that I have never after been the man I was before it happened. I have always been grateful because I saw it, have always seen it, as a GOOD THING. I admit however that not everyone would see it that way if it happened to them and I doubt that anyone cares much that it happened to me.

I once thought I was supposed to get you all to care and that somehow this goal figured fairly directly in "Saving The World". This was back in the late 60's and early 70's, when such thinking was kind of ordinary. Later my thought metamorphosed as I joined with a kindred spirit and tried to make something happen. It all faded by the end of the seventies. The tasks became more ordinary and my wife suggested I return and finish my Bachelor's degree. I used this stuff I had specialized in and turned it into the last 28 credits I needed. I became a fairly rare critter, a holder of a Bachelor's in Philosophy and Psychology who earned his living as a machine designer in heavy industry - in Lumber, then Pulp and Paper, then Plywood, then as a consultant, and finally in Food Products.

All the while, it buzzed in the background, my commitment to that thing that happened, the lodestone of my life. Along the way I met another designer who said his religion was, "We either all go to heaven or we don't!" That's a statement that is actually profound theology and you can find it in more complex formulations if you chose to look in the theological literature. For example, the Universalists in the amalgam of the Unitarian-Universalist faith today actually hold to a variant of that statement, I beleive. He said it and it has turned out that I beleive it. I found my spiritual task had metamorphosed into a kind of Bodhisattva ideal - that I was now working to get us all to heaven - so to speak.

I ran into Buddhism (where the Bodhisattva ideal arises) and realized another thing. There are myriad paths and they partake of two types, the long ways and the short cuts. You see, the whole thrust of the Buddhist thing, if I may be so bold, is to jump the track of the Hindu polytheist long way home into a beyond the need of any god short cut that theoretically can be accomplished under the right discipline in a single life.

That very few actually do this is not surprising. The long way is our natural walk and will eventually bring success despite all confusions and resistances. The Bodhisattva is one who helps and we need more helpers so this is something to do. You don't actually try to escape but to set yourself into a helping position instead.

If you want to see it this way, the same sort of thing can be said of the mideast Judaeo-Christian monotheist traditions where the long way is held by the Jewish forbears and the short cuts have been accomplished first by Christians and then improved upon (so they say) by the Muslims. Our modern conflicts are all about the long term consequences of these variant visions as they impact each other. Christians might be allied with Jews these days but it wasn't always so. There have been historical periods where Jews escaped into Muslim zones because while the Muslims were not that kind the Christians were far more vicious.

I don't intend to get into all this, just to point out the context of the poem. There is such a thing as a spiritual short cut. Some people live for that. That is unusual. It is far more usual - most of us are doing the journey taking the long way even when we offer reverence for the short cut.

The Long Way

The glitter deceives
us as night takes our vision.
We are left with bones.
How the moon opens
her heart, how she sobs, cries out
across all our years,
waxing and waning,
and the tides still rise and fall.
So it is with us
as we rise and fall
according to the long way
we have still to go.

September 24, 2010 9:56 AM

The Long Way

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

It's All Your Fault


That I know this behavior at all well is discouraging since I want to reach some form of spiritual maturity.

Sigh

Perhaps in the next life. But as I have written before, in an argument with God I got myself into this. This is a life not exactly in the main track He had planned for me but is instead a life where I am engaged in proving a point. I am in a life He has permitted me. I suppose I am using up my slack time. Oh well.

It's All Your Fault
(I Need You, I Need You, I Love You)

If you had no light
I would fall short of myself
in uncertainty
and my anxious need.

I would blame the world again.

I would lay down hard
on the dust bin pile
and allow my soul to puff
out my sides like spores,
say it serves you right
that I deflate before you.

See what your dark does,
what you make me do?!

September 23, 2010 9:28 AM
Finished August 19, 2014 3:05 PM

Monday, August 18, 2014

Before There Were Men


Indigenous modern horses died out in the New World at the end of the Pleistocene, about 12,000 years ago, and thus were absent until the Spanish brought domestic horses from Europe, beginning in 1493.

The evolution of the horse occurred over a period of 50 million years, transforming the small, dog-sized, forest-dwelling Eohippus ("dawn horse") into the modern horse. Paleozoologists have been able to piece together a more complete outline of the modern horse's evolutionary lineage than that of any other animal.

Horses share a common ancestry with tapirs and rhinoceroses. The perissodactyls (the group of animals that include horses) arose in the late Paleocene, less than 10 million years after the Cretaceous–Paleogene extinction event.

Before There Were Men
(The North American Plains)

I run with horses
across the plains with matched gait.

I nudge them, call them
forth with plaintive cry
for all that once was, before
we were to ripen
on the vine of time.

You were busy elsewhere then,
dreaming Asian dreams.

September 22, 2010 11:00 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2014

How Stupid Can I Get - A Magpie Tale

Photo by Stainforth supplied by Tess
as a writing prompt for this week's

How Stupid Can I Get

I fell off the boat
doing a way stupid thing,
walking the handrail.
No one saw me fall.
No one heard my call either.
This water is cold
and my legs are numb.
I can't tell if that's a shark
nibbling off my toes.
No one saw me fall
but you.

August 17, 2014 1:07 PM




Saturday, August 16, 2014

A Mummer's Eye View

Court Mummers

For those who care enough, you can read about mummers here: Mummers Plays

A Mummer's Eye View

I too love the gesture.
I mean this thing's pantomime
if it is at all.

No matter, we shall go
down the path of dancing hands
tracing out sacred
signs passed down to us.
We will find though it softens
that still it shatters.

September 19, 2010 7:46 PM

Monday, August 11, 2014

And Have Not Love

Even though I should fly with the wings of angels, if I have no love then I am hollow and false.

Angelic Aspirations

If I were to wait
with you in the weeds, the verge
of the world, tasting
the idle weaving
of clouds and birds and blue sky
and making all that
my own slow notion
of how you have entered me
and feathered your nest,
used my right lung's air
as your very own after
granting all wishes
I held in secret,
if I were to wait with you
I might earn my wings.

September 19, 2010 4:30 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Orchestral Brass


Orchestral Brass

It's hollow and long
and burnished in the late sun
of oratory.

I no longer can
purse my chapped lips despite hope
and our sharper skills
so I leave quartets
to others still able as
I once certainly
was. All is holy.
You asked and I so assert
as if that mattered,

not that it still does.

‎August ‎10, ‎2014 8:20 PM

This poem spins off of work by Iren Toh of Singapore. Find her poem on her blog, Orange Is A Fruit

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Just Visiting

The right color, but my shirt logo was all lower case
with the print small enough to be in one line.

I Have This Attitude Sometimes

Time's passage,
the normal suffering found
within time's passage,
the way none of us
depart unscathed,
how I turn, turn, searching
how to turn round right.

I am no exception,
cannot be one on this planet.

I once wore a black t-shirt proudly
'til I wore it out. In white it
said "only visiting this planet"
which would be all right with me.

September 18, 2010 7:23 AM
Edited, 9/19/10 4:15 PM

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