Serendipity is a great word...happy good luck with a hint of someone behind it...and my life had been filled with it. I would like to be able to say I am properly grateful. Instead, I say things like, "It's about time I caught a break." *cringe* Well, not so much any more. I am better at expressing gratitude now, after a whole lifetime. But I must admit it's been a long time coming, and I am still in the background a God fighter. I still think there's enough wrong here with all the pain and fear in the world, I mean the real stuff. It's hard for me to take the good stuff as a gift when there is so much lack and need. Even when it's cool with me, then I can ask, but why me? Why should I be so blessed? There's something wrong with that.
But the wisdom of the day is to just accept and if I can, to show gratitude. If not then seek forgiveness and give a gift, pay it forward.
Serendipity
When I landed here,
Right at her hearth, by her side,
Serendipity
Whispered in my ear
Saying, "I'm really the deal
He's given to you.
"You will have to wait
For me to arrive again
And meantime you shall
Act as if you can do it
All on your own. That's
What he wants of you."
January 6, 2009 10:21 AM
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I don't know why I wrote this poem. I think there is something to it though. Some of the gifts of the spirit are not meant for the light of day or public display. I kind of think that way about the music I play on my keyboard. I rarely have an audience and would be slow to gather one. On the other hand, I have been happy to give readings of my poetry. I don't know for sure what the difference is. Maybe it's like this...
Hidden Wealth
I looked underfoot
Expecting nothing for it
But found something there.
I wanted to stake
My claim but you said, "Nothing
Doing little man."
I don't think it fair.
It's so close to me, easy
For me to pick up.
That is how it seems.
You said, "It's your hidden wealth.
Must remain just like that.
"Won't fire you up otherwise."
January 7, 2009 12:26 PM
Contraction
1 week ago
so nice to feel the heat of this crucible... this vessel you are, this fire you tend...
ReplyDeleteHere is to more Hidden Wealth that becomes visible.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes picture you as a misplaced Strek trek Commander...Christopher...Other times as a Hobbit..I know corney but the feel fits on both counts for this observer
Linda
Linda
I just loved Serendipity Christopher.
ReplyDeletexxx
I think "Serendipity" is publishable. It really speaks to me, and I think it would to many.
ReplyDeletenever ask why
ReplyDeletejust soar high...
Harlequin, thank you for putting it that way.
ReplyDeleteLinda, you shouldn't humor me :) I feel too much like I am not of this world without your help. I say the bus let me off at this stop and I've been waiting for the damn bus to come back ever since.
Michelle, thanks. xx
Karen, thank you for saying so. I have published one, know that many I write are publishable, but I am not much interested oddly. This is enough for me.
HB, I am flapping my wings, trying to get off the ground. I'm a little overweighted with attitudes, I think. :)
Christopher I loved this post. I feel that way so much, just get cynical and smirky, and shocked when things start to get magical. But the poem, the first one, that is so real. Like a calming hand that says, it is alright, you are strong because I gave you strength, carry on. And then the magic comes and we see how it all unfolded so perfectly after all. That's what your poem makes me think of.
ReplyDeleteCatv, wow. You people like this poem lots more than I do. Go figure.
ReplyDeleteI like the idea of hidden wealth. You are more than you seem. That can never disappoint.
ReplyDeleteThanks Rachel. You are certainly more than you seem, so I guess you have just such treasure.
ReplyDelete....So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
ReplyDeleteHang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Green Day
Ghost, You are indeed a friend to me.
ReplyDeleteAfter the first, I'd grab Seredipity by her skirts and not let her leave. I'm all stubborn that way.
ReplyDeleteI really, really get the hidden wealth. Sometimes things have more value when simply cherished.
ReplyDeleteErin, I get you about Serendipity but just like choosing to get in the boat, heh, she's a slippery girl.
ReplyDeleteI am happy you get the hidden wealth thing. I know that I am performance shy. One of the things AA has been good for was to thrash much of my stage fright out of me. Now that it is so much reduced, I still notice reluctance to share some things publicly. I am not shy about sharing that these things are in my life. I don't understand why my music is like that, especially since I fully enjoyed choral singing. I have also been fine drumming in public. But I am reluctant beyond stage fright with the music. A mystery, but I get nowhere pondering it.