Here are two related poems. They were written 24 hours apart, seem to be about the same character with a long time between the views, at least that is how it seems to me. It seems that Adam got told what to do, did it, and this is what he got, years later.
In AA, we are instructed in this way, "...it is clear that we manufactured our own misery. God didn't do it. Avoid then, the deliberate manufacture of misery, but if trouble comes, cheerfully capitalize on it as an opportunity..."
So here is a story of just such a condition, and then it's long term aftermath.
Adam's Sacrifice
That you should require
My separation from you
Is what baffles me.
It feels bleak and hard
That I must walk out the door.
I know I started
This situation in truth
By my argument
And I think I'm right
But still, what a steep deep price.
And on top of it,
At the high capstone,
You want me to do this thing
As if willingly.
January 7, 2009 11:51 AM
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No Guarantees
I ache in hidden
Places and have for years now,
Following your lead.
This is the price discipline
Has laid on my heart, saying,
"Regret would be worse,
Trust me on this, my old friend."
But how can I know
For sure?
January 8, 2009 11:55 AM
Contraction
1 week ago
I can't begin to tell you how much your words move me. Keep writing..
ReplyDeleteYou express the human condition so well.
ReplyDeletei found this really kewl picture...... it has the person's name who did it and everything stamped right on it....
ReplyDeleteIda, thank you, I intend to keep writing.
ReplyDeleteKaren, I deny I'm human half the time. Why does everybody keep laughing at me??
Ghost, Yes indeed, a kewl picture.
and isn't that just the damned rub...
ReplyDeleteFor me, I have learned not to question some things too deeply, dangerous stuff.
xxxx
A lot of angst in these ones. It's friday, have some chocolate with me... :)
ReplyDeleteI feel the pain in your words. I to feel that pain having lost my love just 3 short days ago. I wrote a poem on my blog that says a lot of what you are saying.
ReplyDeleteThis is my foirst time on your blog, but I plan to return often.
Piratedred
Michelle, that my dear, is indeed one of the true choices, one of the callings, so to speak...to not question too deeply is to make room for other important stuff. These are the choices life is made of. On the other hand, there are people called to the deep questions. They could not do otherwise.
ReplyDeleteRachel, thank you for the offer, however, if I start eating the chocolate I will rudely eat all the chocolate.
Piratedred, welcome.
Sometimes your poetry just tugs at my heart strings....
ReplyDelete{{{Cherie}}}
ReplyDeleteThank you for saying so. I love your poesy too.